i feel fucking useless , because no matter how much i hate it , you will still be doing the same .
do you fucking mind, how would i feel? am i still as important to you, in your heart like before?
maybe i shouldn't bother about this anymore, i shouldn't care more than what i should be doing .
right now , i totally have the uncertainty to answer any questions from others at all about us .
i don't fucking know how i could endure for the past 3 years plus , maybe i will just do it by crying and shutting myself away.
i can't do it, i think i will give up , if everything don't change .
but i don't bear to do anything , because of something called love.
the love, the faith,the trust,the memories of me and you.
it fucking hurts and burns me deep inside of me.
i feel like i should fucking die , so everything could end.
not a single day , i could have a peace of mind of not worrying about anything .
people will change, feeling do change too. i'm so fucking afraid of the day that might come..
just so afraid i might be left alone again without you by my side.
i cried so hard on monday until my mum could heard me when i was sleeping.
i just need you to assure me and change .
xx. i love you
