love like this ♥

it's is always the feeling that i might lose to someone else/that you might leave me because of that particular someone.
so sometimes, i will just get very jealous at that certain point which you are close with that particular someone.
it is because i'm selfish especially in relationship , i don't like to share anything with anyone.

i always cry and keep everything to myself, because i know if i told you ,
we might just end up fighting and quarreling over just like just now.
this is the reason, i don't like to share with you what i'm feeling.

even if it is just friend, i will still feel insecure because everything always starts from being friends.
from friends  > being a relationship , ain't it?

you said, i always keep everything to myself, so when i told you.
i got no replies from you at all, you know i been waiting the whole night without sleep at all?
the next day , i tried to tell you , texted you and again no reply from you?
you gave me that i don't care feeling , make me feel that i tell and never tell you makes no differences.

For the past few days, been text-ing you but you ain't replying .
i keep feel that you don't care about me anymore, you don't love me as much as before...

this is the only thing that we have been fighting and quarreling about every single time, i don't get why you need to be so close any girls .


i hope you understand how i feel and why i am reacting this way, i'm sorry.