love like this ♥

I just couldn't succeed in anything , be it in relationship, studies , family. 

i wanted to salvage everything and i want him to be mine , i studying something which i never ever think i would even study about it , something i don't like , something i hate , my relationship with dad was bad, we couldn't talk face to face or i think we will shout at each other face, my dad temper is as bad as mine, he totally selfish , he rejected giving my pocket money, wtf which he is supposed to.

well, i wish i could be run down by a car and die or lost my memory , i wish i could sleep and never wake up .

i never ever been so upset with myself before, i just hate myself for being like this.

if money wasn't a problem everyone would be better , i could study the course i want in private school , which i really wanted since government is totally impossible to go.


my life just sucks , it's my fault for everything.
xx